Quarantine and pregnant 

Today at 7:36 AM

When I got pregnant this year I pictured something very different I pictured hanging out with my family and doing fun stuff enjoying the summer with my boys and beach days before the new baby is born and then the pandemic hit.. it was like reality smacked everyone in the face. I was so used to waking up and having my kids on a schedule with soccer games and practice and game days not to mention waking up for school and our fave park days with friends it was a weekly thing and my kids are energizer bunnies they literally keep going and going so tiring them out with a whole day of activities honestly helped .. a lot. Not only with my kids but myself I struggle with anxiety a lot and it seriously kept my mind in check my thoughts organized and not all over the place. Fast forward to school closing down and everything being closed it was new it was sad I tried making the best of it at first yes were in this together family time i ordered activities left and right from amazon for my boys to keep them active we went on walks but one month later it was catching up to me and the boys we were antsy and hated the house I started becoming moody and pregnancy was emotional like this was the new “normal “ wearing mask drenching ourself in then sanitizer to make sure we didn’t catch “the rona” aka corona virus. I tried this thing called distance learning which did not work for us my 5 year old straight up told me how boring it was. So I took it to my own hands and taught him myself bought books and things to help with his homeschooling and it wasn’t always pretty let me tell you it went from ok mom letters and sounds to throwing a tantrum crying and complaining but we took it day by day. Eventually we got through and summer started my fave season “summer” ! We still continued being active weekends with dad off consisted of being outside all day and playing with everything!!! We ate lunch outside and hung out and we even went to our parents house because both of them have pools and if it ment them swimming all day let it be! My sister in laws would bring my nieces and nephews and they would just run around and be silly which was awesome they deserve to be kids and get in trouble.. sometimes. My husband and I tried to make the best of it for them and do what we can to make this more comfortable for them but then there also came days that my anxiety would shoot up and I would cry and cry and be so sad because if this. Like seriously who would have known a pandemic would hit and then the protesting and looting and the death of George Floyd which started a movement which brought people together to stand up for what’s right. It broke my heart to see our world fighting like this I mean maybe this happened so we can open our eyes and see what’s really going on around us and we were living in a world that was GO GO GO that we need to stop and listen. I still have my up and down days where I try my best to be the best mom I can be for my babies and we visited family took a little road trip to get out and it was great.Our kids enjoyed it and we did too it was a breather from all the chaos and it honestly made me think about a lot .. life our new addition which is a girl. Things I can do to make life better for myself and my family the list goes on I’m just grateful I was able to take a vacation this summer before the baby is born. As far as the baby I try to enjoy every movement as much as possible and embrace the belly and I took maternity shots while on vacay because I’m not letting the virus get me down about it yes I pictured more freedom and date nights and family outings but we need to work with what we got I continue my therapy every month and let me tell you it’s weird FaceTiming a therapist but it will do, as long I am taking care of myself I’m happy. I tell myself everyday we’re not the only ones struggling at home this is world wide and this is only temporary I know God has a plan and we have to wait it out. To the moms out there I feel your pain we have our up and down days and it’s ok it’s mentally draining but do what you can. To the people struggling with mental health I feel you know that you are loved and don’t let this win!I want to post more on this I feel it’s a good outlet and would help us moms get together and I would love to post my photography more:)